Sunday, October 23, 2011

Free to Be Me

Well, I am now celebrating my last few hours of being 20. The song "Free to Be Me" by Francesca Battistelli kind of became my theme song for the last year of my life. I felt like I could relate to it in so many ways, aside from the fact that the first line says, "At 20 years of age, I'm still lookin' for a dream..." My year being 20 really was a year of searching. But now that this year has come to a close, I am looking back at it realizing how much seeking and finding I actually did. I found myself. I found my lost relationship with God. I found my husband. I found my best friend. I found my lost relationship with my parents. I found God's calling for my life. I found my dream.

I know everything isn't solved. And I know it never will be, but I do know that this coming year will bring new adventures, new challenges, new unknowns, and new people. But you know what? I'm still me. I'm just being molded, shaped, and formed like clay so that I can better serve my Creator. And that's okay with me.

So.. 21? Bring it.

"But now, O LORD, you are our Father;
we are the clay, and you are our potter;
we are all the work of your hand."
Isaiah 64:8

Friday, October 7, 2011

Engaged!

Well, it's official! I am engaged. To be married. To the wonderful Mr. Jeremy Ohs! What a crazy week it has been. Our engagement is only 5 days old, and we haven't set a date yet, but hopefully that will be able to be accomplished this weekend. One step at a time. I am as in love with my ring as I am with the man who gave it to me. Also similar to the man I'm going to marry, my ring is so perfect for me and better than anything I ever dreamed of. I'm the luckiest woman alive. :)

Here's the story:

Last Sunday, 2 October 2011, Jeremy took me out for dinner to Tupelo's Grille in Whitefish, MT. It was seriously one of the best meals I've had in a long time. We had the famous bread pudding for dessert. After that we got in the car and he told me we had a long drive ahead of us... And he drove up to Glacier National Park (No, He didn't blind fold me..) This is the place where we both have worked in previous years, the place where we always went during the summer for lake days, hiking/biking days, etc. Usually we go in the day time of course, but tonight we went late at night. It was so dark, kinda scary, but really amazing. So we parked at Apgar and went out on the dock on McDonald Lake. He brought blankets and extra sweatshirts to keep me warm. :) He was telling me about how when we met at Creation Music Festival at the Gorge in Washington, (This is an outdoor Christian music festival held every year in the summer) we went to a Newsboys concert one night, and we were laying in the grass on the hill next to each other watching the stars as we listened to the Newsboys sing. That was the night we knew we liked each other. So then we were up at Apgar on Sunday night and we were stargazing and remembering the way we felt about each other that night at Creation. We were standing up because we were so cold and trying to stay warm, and then he got down on one knee and asked me to marry him. I, of course, said yes. So then he put the ring on my finger and we just laid on the dock giggling, snuggling close, and watching the stars. It was so perfect, and in that moment, I knew that in his arms is where I was meant to be.


Also, a side story... The ring is two sizes too big, so.. when we got up to leave the dock, it slipped off my hand. We heard it fall off my hand, then it stopped, and we were silent. We didn't hear a splash, and luckily, it didn't fall off the dock. Jeremy was able to use the flashlight on his phone to find it on the dock in the dark, and we were VERY thankful it didn't fall into the water.

It's crazy how two people meet, become friends, fall in love, get married, have kids, and grow old together. I'm so fortunate that I get to have Jeremy as my partner, my friend, and my husband.

It is my prayer that we will honor Him in our marriage and that we will do our very best to love each other as Christ loves his children.

"If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.
Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
Love never dies."